Raise your hand if you’ve ever had to find a “new you?”
Allow me to raise my hands and yell, “oh oh oh pick me! pick me!” Because that is exactly what I’m doing.
If you’re new here, you won’t know this. But If you’ve been around for a while, you definitely have heard the stories of my journey with anxiety recovery. If you need a refresher, check out our interview with Mel:
Over the past year, I have been changing into a version of me that has always wanted to be known. Unfortunately, the version of me that expiated before was too afraid to let her out. She was the type that dressed kind of the way she wanted. She wore her hair the she thought other people would want her to have it. She was causations of not saying or doing the wrong this for fear of judgement. The list goes on, but you get the picture. The old version of Stephanie was a prototype. Once she broke, the factory realized that they were shorting themselves of a version of her that was more authentic and full of life.
And it’s great! I dig this new version of me…but there’s still work to be done. Just like any type of computer update, there are always some bugs that need tweaking.
Here are the top 3 things I’ve learned in my journey this far:
1.) Life happens. That thing you’re afraid of happening? It could happen. But it also may not. So why stress yourself out about the possibility? Accept where you are. Feel your feelings. Allow them to float in and float out. Like a rain cloud, it will come and it will go. The sun does shine again.
2.) You will not always get your way. It’s fine. Sometimes you will say or do something that doesn’t quite make sense. The joke won’t always land. It’s okay. Observe how you feel, lean into it, and learn for next time.
3.) Dress however the F*** you want. Seriously, who cares what others think? Are you really gonna miss out on feeling the most you you’ve ever felt because of someone else? Why do they get to live their most authentic life but you can’t? Yeah. Sit with that for a moment.
You deserve to feel good about yourself. But know, it takes hard work to get there. And when you get there, other things will come up that need addressing. Remember, there is no end goal. This is a lifelong journey. The only person you ever need to compare yourself to is you. Look at where you are now and see how far you’ve come.
And most importantly, enjoy yourself and your growth along the way. That’s the fun of this. You get be the observer and performer in your own show. Now, head to the stage because it’s curtains up!
With all the love,
Your Cycle Half - Stephanie